Wow, here I was just brushing my teeth, getting ready for bed when BAMMMMM!!!! out of nowhere I'm blindsided with this idea, this possibility that nearly brought me to my knees. This idea could drastically alter the past, present, and future of the series I am working on (The "Kiss" Series)and I just don't know how to proceed.
My characters have become like living people to me (might sound crazy but I've come to terms with it) and I now I'm looking at them in a whole new light, wondering what they would do if this idea bore fruit. How would it shape them? Would they become different? Would they hate me for it? Would they be devastated? Would they be happy?
I'm just super conflicted right now.
I immediately spit out my toothpaste grabbed up a pen and wrote for about ten or fifteen minutes without stopping. Just writing questions, possibilities, senerioes, reactions and I was left stumped. This is going to take some thought, some time to sort out.
I have two, nearly three books in the series completed and if I went ahead with this I'd have to start from scratch, I wouldn't feel comfortable or right otherwise.
And another problem is that I don't have anyone to turn to and be like "What do you think Lorrie and Isaac would do if 'blah, blah, blah' was the case?"
Its frightening to me that know one knows the twists and turns of the story like I do. Sure, I've got notes, lots and lots of notes and musings and ideas but they are completely discombobulated to any eye but mine (and people probably couldn't even read my handwriting anyway)
GAHHHHH!!!! I'm so exhausted but I know I won't be sleeping tonight, I'll be completely and utterly consumed, and work is going to be hell..